... in the beginning......
This is an experiment for me. I have never truly written anything for anyone to see. In fact, for quite awhile, i have poo-pooed the thought of blogging. "why in the world would i want to lay myself bare for all to see?" I would say to myself.
Until one day i looked and i could not find myself.(truly,it took me 3 days to fill in my profile. i couldn't figure out my favorites!)
somehow i've become buried under myriad false expectations(mine included),anger,guilt, fear, exhaustion....yeah,your basic case of World Weariness;too emotionally exhausted to even be bothered with the care and upkeep of a personality all my own.
But this is a new beginning! I am taking back me! I've given so many pieces of me away,I feel scattered to the four winds..... I'm taking back and trying to renew and rebuild the lost pieces of me. Then we'll take a look and see what we've come up with.
So bear with me. For awhile it may seem like there is no rhyme or reason to this process. I think about many things - on the inside. I wonder about many things - on the inside. I am many people - on the inside. The process of bringing the inner to the outer could be - chaotic -at best.
but chaotic is interesting.......right?
Until one day i looked and i could not find myself.(truly,it took me 3 days to fill in my profile. i couldn't figure out my favorites!)
somehow i've become buried under myriad false expectations(mine included),anger,guilt, fear, exhaustion....yeah,your basic case of World Weariness;too emotionally exhausted to even be bothered with the care and upkeep of a personality all my own.
But this is a new beginning! I am taking back me! I've given so many pieces of me away,I feel scattered to the four winds..... I'm taking back and trying to renew and rebuild the lost pieces of me. Then we'll take a look and see what we've come up with.
So bear with me. For awhile it may seem like there is no rhyme or reason to this process. I think about many things - on the inside. I wonder about many things - on the inside. I am many people - on the inside. The process of bringing the inner to the outer could be - chaotic -at best.
but chaotic is interesting.......right?
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